hit me with your best shot .

Wednesday, September 24, 2008,12:06 pm

yeah ! im blogging from the mac at ps .

hahaa ,

OHMYTIAN OHMYTIAN !

these have been the longest threee days EVER !

EVERRRRRRR !

but ! its finally wednesday and the major papers are over !

:DDDDDDDDDDD

though , there's nothing to be happy about.

i practically slept through each day and didnt really study.

but ,

im just just just .

so relieved its finally over.

this has been the most irritating exam ever.

and it really got me thinking .

do i really want to do this for the next ,

i-dont-know, TEN YEARS ?

study after study.

exam after exam.

of UNapplicable things .

where my motivation for each is that it would be the last .

and POOF , its not.

i dont know.

see how the results go ba .

but i can already predict it wont be good.

im just hoping to promote ^^

anyway ,

i have not blogged about the nice weekend !

yiqiang came over for service on saturday !

:DD

it was kind of weird how it all happened actually :/

i was studying in school on friday.

and then suddenly,

probably sub-consciously.

i RANDOMLY,

as in , seriously randomly,

picked up my phone and dialed qiang's no.

i was not even thinking about it.

it was super sudden.

and , i dont call my brother THAT randomly.

then he picked up,

and the conversation went like this

me : HELLO! you coming home tonight?

him : yeah, on the way now.

me: oh! hmm . okay . you want to come to my church tomorrow?

him: hm, okay.

me: oh, really ? okay. yay ! bye.

him: yeah bye.

HAHAHAHAHA .

thinking about it now.

i want to laugh my guts out.

it was only when i put down the phone that i realised what had happened.

qiang said the same thing too.

he said when he put down the phone , he suddenly went .

OHMYGOSH , I JUST AGREED TO GO !

hahahahha .

God's little miracles(:

because , i really think service this week made an impact on him.

i felt him spiritual man reignite, refreshen in Christ.

and im so glad !

he even bought a devotion book without being forced to.

THATS A MIRACLE IN ITSELF.

in the same way,

i just went up to him.

me: dad ask yuo to get a devotion book.

him: okay,

for those of you who know my brother ,

you'll understand what a pure miracle and impossible likelihood this was.

it was amazing !

hahaha ,

the rest of the week was a blur .

BUT BUT BUT .

i had the most amazing dream monday night.

haas ,

it totally took my mind off studying .

meaning , i forgot everything i studied. HAHA .

anyway ,

i want to thank my dear D5 for being with me through this tough time .

when i wanted to give up,

when i wanted to just be lazy .

you guys supported me !

keep encouraging me.

im so thankful !

Sunday, September 21, 2008,3:45 pm

what's the point ?

& one more day

Monday, September 15, 2008,7:45 pm

officially a week to promos.

somehow i imagined it differently.

i thought i'd be busy mugging ,

but things seem to be popping up and crashing down one after another.

just when i thought monday would bring a halt to it all.

i was wrong.

one of my best friends is getting the most undeserving treatment ever !

without God in my life ,

i really dont know where the direction and peace in my life would come from.

lalala ~

anyway,

been TRYING to study.

seriously.

after giving up maths.

the load's been lighter.

but my head's just not in it.

overwhelming life is making me so unfocused.

to everyone else who's having a less shitty time than me .

jiayou ! (:

all the best .

i think the only thing that can save me now-

is prayer.

haha .

i seriously,

seriously

SERIOUSLY.

cant wait for promos to be OVER !

Thursday, September 04, 2008,1:18 am

zheng and i are staying over at val's house now, AGAIN!
lols . it was a super last minute thing ,
cos they wanted to go to tampines to study after cg .
then peijun told me "stay overnight at cheong's house leh"
then i went "ok lur" *shrugs .
HHAHAHAHAHA .
without even asking her yet .
random !
thats what i love about valcheong man .
so on ON ON ! :D

yeah , today was quite fun !
fun = unproductive study ))):
woke up like SUPER DUPER early ,
7AM !
realising i didnt do finish my chem last night ):
& had a really bad stomachache .

mum and i watched the show "the last supper"
it was very thought-provoking .
but mum spoilt the ending.
i didnt know she watched shows like that ! :x
she usually falls asleeep over the simplest movies.

bus-ed to cathay and watched WALL-E with D5 !
yay ! it was SUPER CUTE ! (:
the story was actually so much more than just the cutest-robot-in-the-world.
before that , zheng was going on and on about how it was a waste of her time before the movie .
and that she would regret coming .
but she came out a "believer" of wall-e ! ((: hahaaha .
thats how good it is :DDDDDDDD

anyway , we lunched at parkmall
which they told me stories of FTMS .
the old church building .
i think its really sentimental .
i wish i was around then ! ):
hahaha ,
& i think its really amazing to be able to say ,
you've grown with them for years .

we chiong-ed back to church.
and managed to study about an hour before CG .
geog.geog.geog

cg was .
i felt a breakthrough,
even though it was as simple and fundamental as the story of david&goliath.
i felt a Rhema word touch me.
maybe not exactly the one i wanted , the one i expected .
but , i received .
i just wanted to pray .
so i didnt really worship .
i tried to center myself to God's presence .
and then ,
i felt God break the strongholds in my heart - pessimism & insecurity.
and i know it wont happen overnight .
but i must push myself to increase in faith .
the thing that impacted me the most .

1 x God = GOD !

at the end of it all ,
its all God .
what right have we ?
it really impacted me .

my new goal too !
to start intensive reading the bible after promos !(:
yay ! hahaha ,
i've said it a million times .
and i have to actually do it this time .
JIAYOU ! haha .

towards the end , i looked opposite me ,
and i saw john .
hands lifted so high in worship and prayer .
i felt a hunger in him .
im so happy ! haha .
hooray for peifen's friend. hahaha .

&&& peifen and muying gave us JIAYOU cups and cards !
there were so cute and delicious !
so touched. haha .

okay , its 2am now )):
gotta try and study now ! (:

Monday, September 01, 2008,9:50 pm

COUNTDOWN : 20days to promos !

okay, i'll be lying if i said i could cope , or even say struggle .

cos i've drowned , seriously .

i have dreams of being retained .

& honestly i wouldnt mind . if i have 4/6-ians with me ! haha :x

anyway , people , add me on my new email ! (:

& & & ! i finally bought laptop . a tablet actually .

it was quite cheap because of the computer show .

im using it ! haha .

its birthday is 290808 ! (: yay !

its quite small , but pretty . but the buttons are abit whacked.

anyhow press here and there by itself .

but im so grateful !

i know my parents must have thought and considered alot before letting me have it .

and probably dug their pockets for money.

im so thankful .

thank God(:

also, i listened to ''sef-leadership"

so im trying now ! i want to draw near to God again.

i need to regain faith ! (:

decided to stay at home today .

didnt go for the 4/6 gathering .

or studying with zheng or sheela they all .

so , i did practically nothing . except

gym, sleep, emo .

yay ! ):

& i've resolved to go a few things. key word , RESOLVED .

YIWEN'S RESOLUTIONS :

[1] stop scolding vulgarities !

[2] not to dwell on the -ve

[3] study !

[4] refind & retain faith !

[5] fix handphone

[6] be more firm & focused

[7] be a better friend

[8] be a better daughter

[9] take care of laptop.

jiayou ! hah

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